Oh my god, I just finished my last post and turned the TV on and there was a news alert. It's still going right now.

I just called Alex, he's in his apartment but he said he would come over.

The news alert said something about a quarantine within a mile of the Berkeley Hospital. Streets are closing and they are making everyone stay inside of their homes. I don't know what to think. None of this makes sense! Why can't they tell us what is going on!
I'm not even sure if I'm a mile away! It's going to be close!

Jesus, I can hear people walking down the street, alot of people! Yep, there's a exodus of people outside my house walking away from the hospital. Should I join them? Looks like they have suitcases. Oh no! A car just veered around the corner, flattened some people, and crashed into the house across the street! Jesus, I need to get out of here! I don't know what's going on, but I'll try to write again when I have a better idea, word of this needs to get out somehow!

What is going on!!

Is this real?

What is going on! I went back to the hospital tonight around 9 to see if I could visit Jen, but there were army trucks everywhere and men in fatigues. I felt nervous about talking to them but I did anyway. They said there was a problem at the hospital but that it was under control, I didn't need to worry.

I felt queasy and began to walk back to my car when i heard an animalistic scream and a window on an upper floor smashed open and a person came flying out, limbs swinging quickly through the air. She hit the grass and, god it's even hard to write about it, but I think her legs were broken and I could see red all over her face, and it's weird as I think back on it now, she didn't even seem in pain, she had an angry look, and she started to scream again and crawl towards the army trucks, dragging her oddly twisted legs behind her. By this point I was on the verge of puking so I turned around and ran to the car, my heart thumping in my head. I think heard gunfire once I shut the door and had the engine running. Is this really happening? I feel like I'm in the middle of a nightmare and I can't wake up.

Downward into confusion

OK, this is getting freaky. I planned on meeting Jen's parents at the hospital again today at 5 but when we got there there were police in front of the hospital. They told us that we couldn't enter and that only hospital personnel were allowed. Jen's parents freaked out, I was pretty mad too, but they threatened to arrest us if we pushed it any further. They wouldn't give any explanation at all! Alex's dad works for a hospital in Oakland, he's going to see if he knows any doctors here in Berkeley and get the inside scoop. I'm so worried about Jen!

Mmmmm

Howdy, at least I got some news today, though it's mixed. Jen's parents got in town a couple days ago, (though I didn't know it at the time) and we ran into each other at the hospital this morning. They told me that at one point Jen actually died! The doctors tried to revive her- but to no avail, then a half hour later she started breathing again, by some miracle. Neither I or her parents have seen her since, the doctors say she might have received some brain damage and has been emotionally unstable, even injuring one of the doctors! But I'm so glad she's going to live! Her parents are furious that they can't see Jen, I would be too, but the doctors say it's for their own safety. Kinda weird, but again, at least she's alive.

Alex is over now, we're deeply involved in a game of chess and I'm writing between turns. He seems to think he's pretty good, but I already have his rook, both bishops and 3 pons. Hahaha, he's tickling me telling me to write about how smart and strong he is! Haha, fine. Alex is so strong and handsome, I just hope he wins gracefully!

Distractions everywhere. Count one

No news on Jen. I've been able to distract myself with homework and Alex's company, but my stomach has a knot in it. I don't really want to talk about her right now, it seems like I'm going to be waiting forever to hear any news and I just can't dwell on it. I've been watching TV to distract myself, I absolutely love Dancing with the Stars, Apollo Anton Ohno is so hot, and Julianne Hough can dance! I was watching today and a news broadcast cut in the middle saying that a variant of the bird flu had been found at a port in Oregon. Seriously, does that count as breaking news?

I am headed to work in about an hour, that will definitely distract me. After work Alex and I are going to get some Thai food and see a movie. Ta ta.

Another long gloomy unusual idea

So, I went to the hospital today to visit Jen. Alex came with me (thanks Alex) because I wasn't anxious to see Jen in her comatose state alone. When I got to the hospital the receptionist had a frazzled look to her and it seemed busier than usual. There were people on stretchers in the hallway and wheelchairs in the waiting room. At the time I didn't think about it much but it seems rather strange now.
Anyway, when we went to Jen's room the door was closed and there was a guy in front of it, looked like a nurse, who said we couldn't see Jen because she was "not fit" to see anybody. I would have believed him and gone on my way if he wasn't sweating and shifting his eyes back and forth. I asked him what the problem was and he said Jen had woken up but was not acting normally, and that he couldn't say any more because of privacy rights.
So here I am again, at home, waiting anxiously by the phone for any news. Alex is getting pizza and will be back here soon. Well, I hope to write again soon with some good news!

Understanding rebounds victory is veering

I got a horrible call today. Minutes after I had posted my last blog entry, the hospital called saying Jen had taken a turn for the worst. I couldn't breath when they said that, I could feel my heart pounding in my head. They said there was a problem with the transfusion, her body wasn't accepting the new blood. The doctors were going to try giving her another transfusion, and that she should be OK in a couple days. I can't really focus in any of my classes and right now I'm just sitting around worrying. Good thing I have this blog, otherwise I'd be thinking all of the things that could go wrong and worry more. I'm going to go visit Jen again tomorrow, hopefully she will be starting to feel better.